update

So!
Umm, back at college now - havnt seen Cal in a while and I miss him loads :/
We've been arguing loads because he's been doing what mikey was doing for 4 months, although its only because of his exams, whereas mikey was just a lazy git.
I can't wait to see him again, I want to apologize properly and give him such a massive hug, I feel unbelievably bad about everything,and I just want him to know ill always be there.
Mikey, has gotten a lot better - and I know he'll do anything to get me back. I just don't know if I can give him another chance after 4 months of hell and chances.
:/
Cal, is the sweetest guy ever, he's forever playing with my hair and stroking my back. He says the sweetist things and he makes me feel so safe and cared for. And tbh - he's almost everything I've wanted mikey to be.
But, he's going off to uni in just over a year, so will it be worth it?
And mikey - he's so so protective of me, and he cares more than anything for me - he just barely shows it.